After yesterday nigth chat, I have realised so much.
I don't feel xx xxx together as one xx more.
All these while xxx aren't happy xxxxx with me.
xxx even asked questions that xxxx me so much.
what is the point of making you xxxxxxxxx belongs to mine. so what if I wanted to change that xxxxxxx of urs.
thanks for telling me so much yesterday, you make me realised so much so much than I expected.
jus wanted to be alone.

I believe this week is going to be an awesome week. so much to update but i do not have the time. next week alright!

not sure if i should go for it on sat. I am not prepared for it.

moodless. heavy hearted. paranoid. emotion. depress.
I used to be a very happy carefree cheerful girl and also someone that was very easily satisfied. But now I am no longer like one.
Each day I am filled with negative thoughts and worries. Always trying very hard to stay positive in what I am doing and what I am aiming for.
Especially those days that Mo has to be in camp and I have to deal with those troubled feelings myself. Despite him can't be there for me all the time, his daily msgs and phone call do make me feel that he is there 24/7 for me. I want to be there for you too mo by supporting you to get through this ocs period. 6 more weeks! 6 more weeks! You will be an officer. Can't wait for mo ocs commissioning ball!
Can't wait to hunt for pretty dresses and high heels.

IT IS DECEMBER PPL
3 weeks of Sch term break, my 20th Birthday, Christmas and New Year Count Down.
Can't Wait!!! Whoooooo!

This week will be a busy week! Love being busy!
More update tonight. Ok bf is getting Koi for me. Can't wait to end sch!