fucking dull la k again! Fucking dull. what is the fucking wrong with me and I feel so lonely and lacking of confidence in myself. I need happiness.

I have been worrying here and there for almost every single thing. And why am I keep having worries here and there? Whhhhhyyyyyyy?

I know I shouldnt behave like this but ahhhh fuck off man. Why am I feeling this way when I am not even having PMS? Fuck it Fuck it. I know it is how I see things but it seems so hard to fix it.

Shit day. Fuck off day. Fuck day. who should i turn to? i cant turn to baby cos i don want to ruin his happy day with his frens. ahhh fuck off man. fuck it fuck up fuck fuck fuck. night!